martes, 17 de diciembre de 2013

I will wait

It was cold, really cold when she woke up that morning. She had to go to the airport to board her plane at 8.50 in the morning.

She wasn’t sure if she wanted to come back.

Things at home had been a little rough lately and she just couldn’t handle it anymore. Her house was falling apart, her boyfriend didn’t act the same around her, her mother had just passed away, and she had no reason to go back to that empty life.  Nothing was keeping her in that small town.

She packed quietly, humming to herself in a low voice. She folded a beautiful dress neatly. Her boyfriend had given her that. She was thinking about giving it away.

How many times did she think about leaving? She never liked that town. In fact, she hated it. And now that she didn’t have anything to go back to, she just couldn’t wrap herself around the idea of staying in Prague forever.

When she arrived at the airport back home, her mother wouldn’t be there. And no green-eyed boy would wait for her neither because, to be honest, she was pretty sure he didn’t care about her anymore.

‘I’m doing him a favor’ she thought to herself. If she didn’t show up to take her plane, it would be easier for him. She would be the one to break things off and he could move on with his life.

Silence filled the room. She wasn’t sure… but then she was.

She made a silent pact with herself.

It was cold, really cold when she didn’t show up to the airport and lost the plane that was going to take her back.

It was hot, really hot in the airport back home, where a green-eyed boy stood still with flowers in one hand, chocolates in the other, and a whole bunch of apologies in his heart.


It was suddenly cold when the boy realised she wasn’t coming back.

miércoles, 31 de julio de 2013

Meet me in the pouring rain.

Sorry, English is not my first lenguage but I just wanted to write in English, idk why.

I was sitting outside the café, in the nearest table to the door. It was raining heavily, but I still sat outside, I wasn’t sure why.

I was reading the Third Chapter of one of my books when he arrived, soaking wet and smiling, showing those marvellous dimples that had made me blush a year ago. I had thought that he wouldn’t show up, but to contrary belief he was standing in front of me, staring.

I didn’t know what to say, I was in a bit of a shock, actually. Instead of saying hello, I just said “You remembered” and he nodded shyly, still with his big emerald eyes looking right at me.

The memories of the last – and first – time we saw each other were a bit blurry, but I still can hear the loud noise coming from the café, the sound of laughter and love and everything else that I couldn’t do.

I also remember how he asked politely “May I sit with you?” and I just said yes, only because of his warm smile that reminded me of home somehow.

Both of the weeks we lived were wild. I felt happy, sad, in love, reckless, free but overall… I felt alive. Alive like never before because Harry was one of the most amazing human beings that I had ever met and he made me feel so many things. He was just like a tornado, turning my world upside down. And his hands were like guns, and with every kiss he pulled the trigger creating holes in me that – I should have known – I was not able to fix.

And then I had to say goodbye.

I told him that I would come back, that I wouldn’t just forget everything because for the first time in my life I felt something. I wasn’t numb anymore and I was ready to love everything as much as I’d loved Harry.

He was special. He used to take pictures when we were together, with and old Polaroid that he took everywhere. He used to take pictures of me when we were just lying on the floor of his flat listening to old records of unknown bands on his record player. He used to touch me like if I was just about to break, and he would just stare at me, saying – like an excuse – that he just wanted to remember me as much as he could, because you can’t remember how you really feel by just looking at some photos. He just liked everything and everyone with a fiery passion that – at first – I couldn’t understand. Until I did.

“My life is fucking bullshit, you know? I’m fucked up and so is everyone aroud me. So… I just focus on the small things, on those little things that make me happy. Like the sound of someone unwrapping a present and the light in their eyes when they like it. Or the way couples hold hands and how they feel, as if the time had stopped around them and they were in their own little world. That’s… that’s how I feel when I’m with you. Silly, isn’t it?”

And now he was there, beaming at me with a grin that filled me with warmth. He was like the sun, he was my sun and I just moved to his direction like a sunflower.

“It’s been a year but I waited for you” my breath got stuck on my throat.

“You weren’t here yesterday.” I said and he looked at the ground. “It doesn’t matter, though. You’re here now and I…” He grinned at me again, a cheeky grin this time.


“… and I just want to kiss you” He finished my sentence. And that wasn’t what I wanted to say but… he wasn’t lying anyway.

sábado, 9 de marzo de 2013

Quedarme.


El sol impactó duramente sobre su cara, despertándola de mal humor. Su habitación era un desastre, había ropa en el suelo y el edredón rojo se encontraba completamente fuera de lugar.

Deslizó sus piernas fuera del mal colocado acolchado y se paró. Las cosas aún daban vueltas en su cabeza.  Lo merecía, o al menos eso pensaba ella.

Iba a marcharse, tenía que hacerlo. Ahora más que nunca, ésta era la perfecta excusa. Se había acostado con él y tenía que pagar las consecuencias.

Su mejor amigo, con cabello dorado y ojos celestes, era todo lo que ella podía pedir en un hombre. Era alto, caballero y sobre todo, buen besador, solo que no lo supo hasta anoche, cuando perdió el control.

Siempre se consideró una mujer fuerte, y lo era, pero sus barreras habían caído totalmente cuando, luego de una agradable cena con su amigo con algo de vino, le había confesado que lo amaba, con lágrimas en los ojos. ¿Qué se le había cruzado por la mente? ¿Qué acaso iba a decirle “–  Yo también –”? Inútilmente se había expuesto ante él, le había mostrado sus debilidades y había caído en su estúpida trampa.

Usualmente reía de las mujeres que estaban con él, sabía que era hombre de una sola noche. Pensaba que eran inútiles por dejarse llevar pero… ahora las compadecía e, irónicamente, quería reír de sí misma.

Él la besó y delicadamente bajó el bretel de su vestido, besando su hombro. Le susurró cosas lindas y así la llevó a la cama. ¡No, no lo hagas! Quería gritarse a sí misma mientras recordaba esas escenas en la ducha, pero era muy tarde, su cuerpo seguía moviéndose hacia el colchón y allí se dejaba caer, se dejaba seducir tan fácilmente, con tontas palabras.

No podía mentir, lo había pasado de maravilla, pero ahora tenía que irse, lo sabía bien. Pueblo chico, infierno grande, decía siempre su madre, y si alguien se enteraba de lo ocurrido entre ellos, no quería estar presente para ver las caras de las estúpidas e insignificantes viejas chismosas del barrio que, por alguna extraña razón eran respetadas por casi todos. Eran ‘’mujeres importantes para la sociedad’’ según el resto del pueblo.

Furiosa y con el cabello chorreando agua, metió todo lo que pudo en su pequeño bolso azul, y el resto en una maleta. Sabía que su maquillaje no sobreviviría el viaje, así que lo metió en su cartera mientras esperaba que calentara su rizador de cabellos.

Afuera hacía frío. Estaba helado y esperar un taxi se estaba volviendo una tarea insoportable.  Justo cuando pensaba marcharse, uno se asomó al final de la calle, ella lo paró y se introdujo en él indicándole al conductor su destino.

El café estaba amargo, pero por lo menos pudo fumarse un cigarrillo en aquella cafetería que se encontraba en el aeropuerto. Con su mano izquierda sostenía Cumbres Borrascosas,  mientras leía y le daba una calada a su cigarro en silencio.

Por un instante apartó los ojos de su lectura, solo por un instante, y lo vio.  Estaba sentado en la mesa opuesta a la de ella y tenía un libro entre sus manos también. No pudo saber qué leía.  Su ceño estaba fruncido, hasta que con un bufido tomó un par de anteojos que se encontraban sobre la mesa, resignado.  Pestañas largas y cabello castaño, ojos celestes y labios finos y rosados. La barba de unos 2 días comenzaba a asomarse en su barbilla. Era algo así como un Adonis con aspecto Europeo perdido en medio de Nueva York.

Había revolucionado sus hormonas en cinco segundos, y de repente sintió que quería llamar su atención como si fuera una niña en preescolar.

Sus ojos se encontraron y, como si fuera un reflejo, se sonrieron.  Inmediatamente él se paró, para tomar asiento frente a ella e iniciar una corta conversación. Era sociable, simpático y tenía un acento peculiar.

- ¿Puedo preguntar de dónde eres, Michel? – preguntó esbozando una sonrisa, tratando inútilmente de imitar su pronunciación

 - Vengo de Francia, planeo quedarme un tiempo. ¿Y tú? – ella soltó todo el aire contenido en sus pulmones en forma de suspiro.

- Creo que he decidido quedarme.